this is hw i feel abt her

This is the part where i've to be strong and true to my self...i cant lie to my self any more...i hope before she reads this i want to tell her every thing face to face.i did nt get to do it yesterday coz she when hm early...so nw i tell u ppl why she is so special to me...first of all when i first met her on 16 jan 10,my heart tell me smth....tat she was gonna be different from my ex's,but then i tell my self get to know her better....so day by day when i know her better and when my heart has been heal from the stab tat i get from all my ex's.i fell for her.u just imagine...for 12 times in ur life u have been stab wth a knife at ur heart,hw does it feel?hurt? Yes it's very hurt in deed for me....but today my heart have been open back to give love and my self a second chance...she have open my heart coz for me she is the key to every thing in my life...i dont know but i'm gonna say this...i love her so much even every where i go or every second in my life i will always think of her.she is very beautiful,cute and adorable for me....she is a gd person in deed...she also have quit smoking....i dont know why i was so happy when she stop smoking,i guess i love her too much and want the very best for herself....i dont know if she feel the way hw i feel rite nw?

i just hope tat she will be my girl,wife and everything for me.i really3 do love her....but does she love me?i'm nt sure...maybe she just regard me as her bestfren or brother.hmm...it's ok i'm use to it already....and some of the fact is tat i'm nt handsome,i'm ugly,my body are nt nice they are fats,i'm just a simple guy and many more.much2 butter than herself?today...i hope she gonna be my girl friend if we met again...and i hope tat she gave her self a second chance to love a guy.and if i did nt get what i want.it's ok.i already know the answer.i will still be ur bestfren k...=) coz i like to see her smile,she is really2 gd in person and personality...until here my story wth her...gd nyte and sweets dreams...nw is already 2.18 a.m in the morning and my eyes are still red...nvm i'm gonna slp nw...bubye i will update soon...